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*takes a deep breath* OK. Here goes nothing

I've been fat my whole life and it sucks. I've been vegetarian for almost 8 years but I've learned to work around it and I'm still FAT and it sucks. What sure as @#*@ sucks most is that I live in an Asian country where practically everyone is rail-thin and I'm the only one who's FAT. I'm so sick of it. Graaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

LOL

I've tried all kinds of diets and in the past I always succeeded. In a sense. At one point I lost around 80 lbs., & went from 230 (my heaviest) to 150 (I'm around 5'6" tall). HOWEVER, my tendency to regain most of the weight is 100%. I just can't help it. I'm back at around 190 lbs. I think. I can't really get around to weighing myself or looking at myself in the mirror cos I get annoyed at how fat I am. LOL.

At this point I'm just tired of losing weight only to regain most of it back. The last time that I lost weight, I was exercising for 6 hours a day (sometimes more) & for every meal I'd only have like 2 bites. That @#!*$1n6! sucked too. LOL.

I feel that my weight problem is a genetic/habit/lifestyle/psychological thing (wow, that's a lot, lol). Both my parents are overweight. A lot of my mom's siblings are overweight. My paternal grandparents were overweight. My siblings & I are overweight.

My family LOVES to eat. It's kind of like a bonding thing for us too. I mean, eating together as a family at the dinner table is a big thing for us cos it's 1 of those few times that we're actually together. We don't really have a lot of activities that we do together. We always have snacks lying around. We hate the taste of diet food. I've grown accustomed to using Splenda instead of sugar & we use No-Cholesterol cooking oil but our food is STILL. ALWAYS. FRIED. LOL.

Our daily activities don't exactly involve physical work...because we have people to do that for us.

Also, where we live rice is a staple. It's so hard to eat a regular meal without having to eat RICE, which has been found to be the lord of the most evil carbs. Also, this is gonna sound really weird/funny but I feel that my layers of fat protect me. In more senses than one.

I've considered liposuction but seriously it disgusts me & kind of scares me.

It sucks. It's kinda like my smoking. I can't find reasons to NOT smoke and smoking always comforts me. Like food. And it's like everything makes me hungry. If I see a template that's peach in color it immediately makes me want food. Hell it could just as well (that rhymed) have been sh** brown & it still would've made me think of chocolates. LOL

Either those or I'm blaming everything/everyone else but myself again. So anyway I haven't really killed myself yet which means that I haven't lost all hope. I'm trying some diet pills soon & I'm gonna try to--as much as I HATE IT, exercise again. I looked up Diet Forums using Google & found this place & I hope I can get support from this community.

I hope anyone who's trying to diet can get support from this community.

11-05-2005, 10:38 AM	#1 (permalink)
Unsvelte DD Beginner Join Date: Nov 2005 Posts: 13	Big Me takes a deep breath OK. Here goes nothing I've been fat my whole life and it sucks. I've been vegetarian for almost 8 years but I've learned to work around it and I'm still FAT and it sucks. What sure as @#@ sucks most is that I live in an Asian country where practically everyone is rail-thin and I'm the only one who's FAT. I'm so sick of it. Graaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! LOL I've tried all kinds of diets and in the past I always succeeded. In a sense. At one point I lost around 80 lbs., & went from 230 (my heaviest) to 150 (I'm around 5'6" tall). HOWEVER, my tendency to regain most of the weight is 100%. I just can't help it. I'm back at around 190 lbs. I think. I can't really get around to weighing myself or looking at myself in the mirror cos I get annoyed at how fat I am. LOL. At this point I'm just tired of losing weight only to regain most of it back. The last time that I lost weight, I was exercising for 6 hours a day (sometimes more) & for every meal I'd only have like 2 bites. That @#!$1n6! sucked too. LOL. I feel that my weight problem is a genetic/habit/lifestyle/psychological thing (wow, that's a lot, lol). Both my parents are overweight. A lot of my mom's siblings are overweight. My paternal grandparents were overweight. My siblings & I are overweight. My family LOVES to eat. It's kind of like a bonding thing for us too. I mean, eating together as a family at the dinner table is a big thing for us cos it's 1 of those few times that we're actually together. We don't really have a lot of activities that we do together. We always have snacks lying around. We hate the taste of diet food. I've grown accustomed to using Splenda instead of sugar & we use No-Cholesterol cooking oil but our food is STILL. ALWAYS. FRIED. LOL. Our daily activities don't exactly involve physical work...because we have people to do that for us. Also, where we live rice is a staple. It's so hard to eat a regular meal without having to eat RICE, which has been found to be the lord of the most evil carbs. Also, this is gonna sound really weird/funny but I feel that my layers of fat protect me. In more senses than one. I've considered liposuction but seriously it disgusts me & kind of scares me. It sucks. It's kinda like my smoking. I can't find reasons to NOT smoke and smoking always comforts me. Like food. And it's like everything makes me hungry. If I see a template that's peach in color it immediately makes me want food. Hell it could just as well (that rhymed) have been sh** brown & it still would've made me think of chocolates. LOL Either those or I'm blaming everything/everyone else but myself again. So anyway I haven't really killed myself yet which means that I haven't lost all hope. I'm trying some diet pills soon & I'm gonna try to--as much as I HATE IT, exercise again. I looked up Diet Forums using Google & found this place & I hope I can get support from this community. I hope anyone who's trying to diet can get support from this community.